So this is my Dilemma, I'm a Lone saint
I had made fourms in the past here a month ago and this has been my updated experience from all and thanks to those who will see this post and rememeber me srry i'm back but bare with me where im coming from because not sure, but it is serious when it comes to ones faith, especially if they faith relative struggles on top of mental struggles and health relative issues to cognitive and chronic fatigue but im not here to gripe or complain forgive me. But again thanks to those who have assist me in a little help in helping at least guide me rightly on what to do not exactly be taught which is understandable i do not want to be toss to and fro from every wind of doctrine and this is why i cannot.
These are the helpful samples people try to help me with below than i got discourage but kept trying till i found books that helped me.
Where i'm simple and uneducated i was recommended books like
https://www.logos.com/product/136743/plain-theology-for-plain-people
I do not know why but i only read half i guess i do not understand the foundations that well in it
Joined connect groups on TSC with spirtual decerment the best i can and was recommended this book
https://www.logos.com/product/20023/growing-in-christ-a-13-week-course-for-new-and-growing-christians
Wasn't sure how to apply this greatly to myself.
and one here https://www.logos.com/product/2425/30-days-to-understanding-what-christians-believe
this one here that gave me a lot of stuff and was recommended but i found no use can i tell u more why but i wont lay it all out here https://www.logos.com/product/208025/logos-7-anglican-starter-legacy-library
So books above were helpers trying to assist me in learning how to go about my christian walk this i have no one in my christian life really that is a mentor or a older in the faith that could actually sit down and get it through my head better. so i was wondering below there are all the things i learned about myself that has somewhat helped.
Recently picked up https://www.logos.com/product/1186/believers-bible-commentary and read as far as matthew 6 where he talks about the lords prayer and i learned more about it it says(
(L. Jesus Teaches the Model Prayer (6:9–15)
6:9 In verses 9–13 we have what is generally called “The Lord’s Prayer.” In using this title, however, we should remember that Jesus never prayed it Himself. It was given to His disciples as a model after which they could pattern their prayers. It was not given as the exact words they were to use (v. 7 seems to rule this out), because many words repeated by rote memory can become empty phrases.
Our Father in heaven. Prayer should be addressed to God the Father in acknowledgment of His sovereignty over the universe.
Hallowed be Your name. We should begin our prayers with worship, ascribing praise and honor to Him who is so worthy of it.
6:10 Your kingdom come. After worship, we should pray for the advancement of God’s cause, putting His interests first. Specifically, we should pray for the day when our Savior-God, the Lord Jesus Christ, will set up His kingdom on earth and reign in righteousness.
Your will be done. In this petition we acknowledge that God knows what is best and that we surrender our will to His. It also expresses a longing to see His will acknowledged throughout the world.
On earth as it is in heaven. This phrase modifies all three preceding petitions. The worship of God, the sovereign rule by God, and the performance of His will are all a reality of heaven. The prayer is that these conditions might exist on earth as they do in heaven.
6:11 Give us this day our daily bread. After putting God’s interests first, we are permitted to present our own needs. This petition acknowledges our dependence on God for daily food, both spiritual and physical.
6:12 And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. This does not refer to judicial forgiveness from the penalty of sin (that forgiveness is obtained by faith in the Son of God). Rather this refers to the parental forgiveness that is necessary if fellowship with our Father is to be maintained. If believers are unwilling to forgive those who wrong them, how can they expect to be in fellowship with their Father who has freely forgiven them for their wrongdoings?
6:13 And do not lead us into temptation. This request may appear to contradict James 1:13, which states that God would never tempt anyone. However, God does allow His people to be tested and tried. This petition expresses a healthy distrust of one’s own ability to resist temptations or to stand up under trial. It acknowledges complete dependence on the Lord for preservation.
But deliver us from the evil one. This is the prayer of all who desperately desire to be kept from sin by the power of God. It is the heart’s cry for daily salvation from the power of sin and Satan in one’s life.)
Then i found about M’Cheyne Reading Plan and it lead me to reading four chapters a day to telling me if i want to read more on these chapters so i clicked on the matthew one because of wanted to learn more about prayer
https://www.amazon.com/Application-Commentary-Gospel-Matthew-Revised-ebook/dp/B009MQTE50/ref=as_li_ss_tl?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1469496506&sr=1-6&keywords=matthew+commentary&linkCode=sl1&tag=bpem-20&linkId=626639345707acf905fe324557b54a5e
That lead me to reading about prayer and i learned about
Five Conditions of Prevailing Prayer By George Muller
https://www.georgemuller.org/devotional/five-conditions-of-prevailing-prayer1
Because i wanted to learn more about prayer
This has been my research and has helped better as if guided
I started the (M’Cheyne Reading Plan) and tips from the website that i took to heart recently like the links below i have listed
https://www.believers.org/listbel.htm
These are the ones i read so far
https://www.believers.org/believe/bel164.htm
https://www.believers.org/believe/bel133.htm
https://www.believers.org/believe/bel176.htm
https://www.believers.org/believe/bel175.htm
(So far that's where im left at at the moment with prayer)
But the books below in order what i yet not finished yet but
The Discipline of Grace: God's Role and Our Role in the Pursuit of Holiness by Jerry Bridges trying to understand grace more and this book (i found this myself and it kinda went over my head)
I found a book on the gospel by paul washer is was a small (Still a little complex yet i understood where i stand where i talks about conversion) booklet https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B01N5VB21T/ref=dbs_a_def_rwt_hsch_vapi_tkin_p1_i2
This one has helped me understand a lot better
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00LA9LBCQ/ref=dp-kindle-redirect?_encoding=UTF8&btkr=1
A Simple Christianity: Rediscover the Foundational Principles of Our Faith Kindle Edition
by John F. MacArthur
I use the https://www.logos.com/product/594/the-new-living-translation with text comparison
I just simply am just trying to find the basis of my prayer life with god and wanting to love jesus in a way i can understand how. I watched RightNow Media Theo, learning about God and who He's called us to be is easy and fun. Each lesson focuses on a spiritual topic that both entertains and teaches children about key aspects in the Christian faith. That's like how my life is at the moment when i said in having a child like faith
I know
A Simple Christianity: Rediscover the Foundational Principles of Our Faith Kindle Edition
by John F. MacArthur
Has helped me understand a lot better Gods love for me, And i am still continue read it.
Just mainly I need continue on better understanding foundational truths about Jesus at a low grade educational level. I know i came a long way in understanding /Grace/Faith better/ by continue trying to learn about it still struggling but i will learn them better. I do not understand Entire dependence upon the merits and mediation of the Lord Jesus Christ, as the only ground of any claim for blessing.
Which is found in
Five Conditions of Prevailing Prayer By George Muller
https://www.georgemuller.org/devotional/five-conditions-of-prevailing-prayer1
Or really any of it. I will try and make sense more of this if to anyone and really if something stands out and u do not know what i'm trying to ask for just i know is i have an affection for Jesus that i never had and want to know the bibical jesus that found me he loves me and has won my heart and i just don't know him as he desires for to and i have strayed indifferently in my thinking and just want to get things right. I don't have a basis in what i truly understand and because of no church's around me and i know reading the bible renews the mind so im gonna do more of that. I'm out of the World, And all i do is The Word at least to the existent i know how, and really in came down to to just sharing and explaining the best i can on with others helping on here and my experience so far in my christian life with little to no knowledge really i still try and fill my mind with scripture. Thanks for listening everyone.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=avVpUM-qPTk&list=PLOh-JQmbE6w-Jyv-sP17EpNcf1kchWWLc&index=11